Screw Me Over

The only one on my side is kazumi. And shes always licking her private parts. "You’re not aggresive enough, you’re not open minded, you’re too laid back, you’re just a follower" How am I suppose to break away from my "sad state of being" if you’re not giving me the freedom to? What the fuck do you want from me? You say I never go for the things I want in life. You know why? Because you won’t allow me to. Im stuck in the ‘if you live under my roof you live by my rules’ phase. Wonder why I’m such a pathetic follower and not a leader? Because I’m stuck following your rules all my life. You don’t give me the change to pilot my own life. I never have a choice. You say you give me all these choices. The things I actually want to pursue you find every way possible so you can shut it down..make it look like the worst possible thing I could ever fucking do. You dangle the things I really want in front of my face to make it seem like I actually have a choice. But in reality what you say goes. It always does. You’re the one that doesn’t have an open mind. You jugde everyone around you. You listen to one side of the story and ignore the possibility of something happening different from how you first percieved it. You don’t even know first hand. You only learn from your coworkers as if they are the most brilliant creatures of this world knowing everything anyone could possibly know. I hate being the way I am: weak. Weak in front of your eyes and the people I’ve come to know. You nurtured me in this way. Its nature vs. nurture. And your so called nurturing always has to win. You don’t give me the chance to mess something up so I learn from it. You control everything. I have to do everything your way. If I mess up your way.. then I’m shit. I’ve always been shit to you. There’s rarely a day when I’m given praise, a day when you seem happy to have me as your daughter. I fucking hate you.